I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real. |
Hurt – Nine Inch Nails |
Have
you ever hurt yourself, just to see what it felt like?
How about cut yourself? No? Of course not. That's something
people who hate themselves do, a form of self-punishment
that leaves a physical reminder of the inner pain that
prompted the act in the first place. Or so we are told.
I can tell you from personal experience that it's not
that simple – people harm themselves for a variety of
reasons and not all of them can be written off as symptoms
of mental anguish. Many of you reading this may have
at least dabbled without even realising. Ever picked
a scab or pressed on a bruise? Why would you do that
if it causes pain or slows the healing process? And
have you ever lost a filling or broken a tooth and had
to wait for an appointment to get it fixed? Think back,
did you just try your best to ignore it or did you repeatedly
prod it with your tongue or a finger? Did it hurt? Even
if it did, I'll lay good money that you still prodded
it again. And again. And what about that niggling hangnail
that kept catching on clothing? Did you carefully remove
it with nail scissors or did you bite it off? I'll bet
it felt good when you got it. If none of this means
anything to you then you are going to have some major
problems with Dans ma peau, and even
if it does you may well find yourself out of your depth.
The
destructive nature of sexual obsession was most famously
and bewitchingly explored by David Cronenberg in his
mesmerising adaptation of J.G. Ballard's Crash,
whose protagonists achieved sexual fulfillment by exposing
themselves to the possibility of violent death and disfigurement.
The film was surrounded by controversy and prompted
howls of outrage from the right wing press, who completely
failed to understand (or simply refused to deal with)
the subtextual thrust of the piece. But where Crash was a communal affair, the journey taken in Dans
ma peau is very much a solitary one.
The
story revolves around Esther, an upwardly mobile professional
woman in a stable relationship that nonetheless takes second
place to her work. Attending a party one evening, she
wanders into the garden and takes a fall, injuring her
leg to a degree that necessitates a hospital visit.
Even at this early stage, director Marina de Van throws
a curve ball when the fall is passed off as a minor incident
and Esther only realises just how badly she has been
hurt some time later when she notices the trail of blood she is leaving. Her initial reaction is one of horrified disbelief –
a natural one to such a bad gash – but her surprise raises
a question re-enforced by the doctor who treats her
wound. The injury should have caused her considerable
pain, but until the discovery of the blood trail she had remained
blissfully unaware of the damage done to her leg. So
after discovering the injury she goes straight to hospital, right? No. Instead she hides the wound and – on her own suggestion – goes on to a
bar for one last drink with her companions before seeking medical attention.
It's
at the hospital that the first real pointers become evident, with her reaction to the treatment an unusual
mix of curiosity and mild arousal. From this point on she develops an increasing fascination with the wound.
This climaxes, so to speak, when she sneaks out of
her office and into a store room to physically attack
it with a metal door hinge, taking
things a step further by inflicting a new wound with
a physicality that suggests that this is no mere scratch,
emphasised by a wince-inducing sound effect and a perfectly
timed edit (or, perhaps more appropriately, cut).
This
is a turning point for the audience, the moment you
will either go with de Van or tune out. The majority
of those I spoke to after our cinema screening were willing (albeit squeamishly) to follow where the film was leading them, and I'm guessing this had less to do with their own history of self harm
than the metaphoric level on which the film was by then working. Esther's discovery is one that she
finds compelling but remains secretive about. The whole
store room incident, despite the violence of her action,
has masturbatory overtones that all but the most prudish
(who, let's face it, would not even be in the cinema
for a film like this) should instantly recognise and
possibly even directly relate to. Thus when Esther confesses
to her friend what she has done, sharing her discovery
with someone who may at least sympathise if not understand,
her friend's negative reaction prompts an immediate
about-face. Esther very quickly realises that this
is something that she cannot share, something that others
will negatively judge her by. Later, at a poolside social gathering,
a group of male colleagues playfully attempt to disrobe
her to throw her into the water and her reaction is
one of screaming panic, as they come perilously close
to exposing her dark secret. Her frantic pleas to her
friend to stop them fall on the deaf ears of disapproval,
and from this point on their friendship is effectively
over.
The
obsessive, damaging relationship metaphor is at its
most devastating in the film's supremely uncomfortable
and uncompromising centrepiece. Following a corporate
dinner at which Esther begins to completely lose control
of her obsession (brilliantly realised through an increasingly
claustrophobic use of close-ups, editing
and overlapping sound effects), she flees to a nearby
hotel for what is essentially an urgently driven and
fiercely passionate sexual liaison, not with another
man or woman but with her own flesh, an encounter realised
with her teeth and a stolen dinner knife. There is no
musical accompaniment to this sequence, no attempt to
impose a surrealistic tone, the gentle moans of
sex replaced by the sounds of biting, chewing and cutting.
It is a scene of quite extraordinary intimacy and disturbing
reality, and one that proved too much for a good part
of the audience at our cinema screening, who turned
their heads away and mumbled into their handkerchiefs.
Or so I was told. I, you see, could not take my eyes
of the screen for a second. Only afterwards did I question
what that said about my own reading of what had just
occurred.
From
this point on, Esther is caught in a spiral of self-destruction,
a violent love affair with her own flesh that only she
cannot see is destroying her. By the time we reach the
climactic sequence, which de Van presents in unsettlingly
stylised form (aware that she can neither top the hotel
scene nor explicitly show what Esther is doing to herself
without completely losing her audience), you can pretty
much select your own metaphor: abusive relationships,
sado-masochism, the deadening effect of the corporate
world, incest, drug addiction... There are plenty more
to choose from and all of them work, because despite the seemingly
disassociative nature of Esther's obsession, there are
too many familiar touchstones along the way for us to
stay at arm's length. We may not understand why she
does what she does, but to a certain degree many of
us have been there too or know someone who has,
whether it be a destructive or unhealthy relationship
that only we were unable to see the harm in or a dependence
on drugs, alcohol or even cigarettes that feels fine
while indulging but is slowly tearing away at the body
inside. When Esther cuts a square off skin and tries
to preserve it, the relationship analogy is impossible
to ignore – not properly cared for it withers and dies,
becoming a treasured memento, mournfully pressed
against her breast like a deceased child. It is no doubt
these subtextual readings that prompted a female friend
after our screening to say: "What she was doing
was really horrible, but it a funny sort of way I knew
where she was coming from. Does that make sense?"
To me it did. Perfectly.
De
Van's real trump card is in casting herself in the lead
role. This is no cost-cutting compromise but a bold
and very deliberate decision that effectively eliminates
any potential barrier between directorial vision and
performer interpretation, and removes any worrying doubts
that might arise about what the director put her lead actor
through. De Van is a compelling screen presence, not
beautiful in the classic sense but still strikingly
attractive, but it's her confidence and
unwavering commitment to the role that really sells
it. If the film itself is a million miles from a Hollywood
product, then de Van's performance is likewise divorced from its mainstream counterpart. There is no
ego at work here, no manufactured image to project,
no self-censorship and seemingly no fear. Whether trailing a camera
over her own naked and injured body in the shower or
exploring the elasticity of her skin while sitting in
the bath, de Van's matter-of-fact and sometimes unflattering
presentation of her own flesh is at the same time both surprising
and yet crucial to why the film is so damned effective,
as is the almost brutal physicality that she brings
to key scenes. This is most obviously visible in the
sequences of self mutilation, which she throws herself
into with a such conviction that it never for a second
feels like a performance – indeed, there are times (particularly
the hotel scene) when the audience is very much put
in the position of voyeur, which makes the scenes themselves
all the more troubling to watch.
Dans
ma peau is dangerous cinema in all that is positive in that
term. Taken literally, it's a horror story about the
exploration and destruction of flesh and a discovery
of emotional feeling through physical pain, but if also
viewed on a metaphorical level, as it inevitably must
be, this is one of the most charged and confrontational
films of the past couple of years. In one extraordinary
piece of writing, directing and acting, Marina de Van –
previously best known in the UK for her screenplay collaborations
with François Ozon and her role in Ozon's delerious Sitcom – takes us to darker places than
even the celebrated Crash dared. As
fellow reviewer Lord Summerisle remarked as we left the cinema, "Cronenberg
must be really jealous."
Framed
at 1.85:1 and anamorphically enhanced, this is a solid
transfer that just lacks that vibrancy that would mark
it as perfect, though this could well be down to the
original film elements. The toned down colour palette
is well reproduced, and sharpness and contrast are fine.
There is some grain evident throughout, but it is never
a problem.
There
are three soundtrack options, something that has become
something of a Tartan standard of late: 2 channel stereo, plus
Dolby and DTS 5.1 surround. Both 5.1 tracks are fuller and
more expansive than the stereo, though this is
not a film that will prompt the subwoofer to blow the
windows across the lawn, even during the early party
sequence. Both the 5.1 and DTS mixes are very front-weighted, though the cutting and biting is reproduced
with disturbing clarity.
It
should be noted that you cannot switch between the audio
tracks using the 'audio' button on your DVD remote – due to the specific requirements of the commentary track
(see below) this has to be done in the Setup menu.
The
only substantial extra here has to be the director's
commentary, which is in French with English
subtitles. As this means replacing the in-film subtitles
with those for the commentary, this option cannot be accessed
via the 'audio' control on the remote and has to be switched
on in the Setup menu on the main intro screen. This is
a busy commentary – de Van barely pauses for breath – but she does tend to discuss character actions and intentions
in a way that, while confirming some things merely hinted
at in the film itself, does not expand to any great degree
on what you should be able to work out for yourself. There is
little information on the technical aspects of filming,
which I would like to have known more about. What does
come through is that de Van sees this as a story a woman
in psychosis, and no mention is made of the film's many
possible connotative readings.
Also
included is a Theatrical Trailer (1:35), which in non-anamorphic 1.85:1 and subtitled.
The inter-titles confirm this is a French rather than a UK trailer.
Also
included is a trailer reel for other recent and upcoming
Tartan releases.
Dans
ma peau is never going to find a large audience – when we screened
it at the cinema we had the smallest attendance of the
season, many of our regulars unable to even deal with
the subject matter, let alone the brutally realistic handling.
But this is great outsider cinema in every respect – daring,
provocative, utterly committed to its vision and disturbing
in all the ways that the modern American horror film is
not. If you are seriously squeamish then you are going
to have a major problem sitting through this, but if you're
prepared to go where the multi-talented de Van wants to
take you then I can promise that this is a journey you
will not forget in a hurry. I raise my glass
to Marina. I've got you... under my skin...
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